Medicine

trigger warning: substance abuse

author: Kira Paynter

popping pills

but not the fun kind

take them every morning

instead of at midnight

slow down my brain chemistry

so I don’t think

stop the anxiety

so I don’t think

so I don’t think

about how much I hate

my life

my feelings

my brain

(my thoughts switch frequency like a radio going from FM to AM)

ash on my tongue

so I don’t 

water in my gums

so I don’t 

so I don’t 

let lies define

my life

my feelings

my brain

(sometimes I wonder who I am without the constant flipping of thoughts)

popping pills

but not the fun kind

as I sit in a car at sunrise

…the radio sits on an AM frequency

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